Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Jonas Forever

I wrote this June 17th 2010.

Wow. who would have ever thought that 2 and a half years after a day of watching all the @jonasbrothers videos on youtube that i would be sitting on my bed, bawling my eyes out because the effect they had on me that fateful sunday afternoon in january... still exists.

today i was just messing around on the piano, and im terrible.. but i thought i would definitely be able to learn one song and be able to be pro at it.. just by memorizing. and i decided that song should be fly with me. my mom is a piano pro, so after teaching me the initial chords, she asked if i wanted to hear the whole song played with both hands... i did... and just after the first few lines i started to get this weird choked up feeling, and tears starting coming out

and i just imagined nick rising from the floor on the piano playing those same notes. and it was game over

all those feelings that were once so strong in my life, and have sadly diminished in the past year or so just flooded back. i remembered going to my first concert and just being so sure i was going to meet them and they were going to love me, and then after it was over crying for literal days.

i know they arent the same boys they were 2.5 years ago, but im not the same girl either. people grow up and change, and weve all been watching this change happen for some time now.. and this change didnt have be as excited to be a jonas fan..

everytime a jonas song comes on my ipod shuffle i would press next.. i just was totally slipping away from my jonas roots.. really the only thing keeping me intertwined with the jonai were my fanfamily friends. but even that was taken away from us, so that was harder to maintain.

but just after that moment, that tiny little moment at the piano, im just so emotional, and i really cant shake it off

these boys made my life the way it is
and if it wasnt for them, i cant even imagine the lack of happiness in my life
i never cared that people made fun of them
because i knew how incredible they were
and i knew how happy they made me feel from the inside out

im so sad that that happiness from the jonas brothers had left me these past months, because its such a powerful force.

my stomach is actually sick right now just thinking about how much i love them. and how great they made my life.

i cant imagine not going to 7 shows in the past 2 years
july 5.08
jan 18.09
july 26.09
aug 27.09
aug 30.09
aug 31.09
jan 16.10 (nick j & admin)

and i cant believe for 2 of those shows that i was front row
how many people get that opportunity?
at the toronto concert there were 55000+ people
and i was front row.. that means tehre may have been 54900 people wanting my life.. and when joe touched my hand...

i cant believe that the jonas brothers filmed camp rock 2 right near guelph
and that i got to see nick jonas on his birthday
and that my step sister got to meet them (she could have cared less...)
but that she took that time to give the phone to joe and nick and that i have gotten to speak to the jonas brothers on the phone.

life is amazing
and the jonas brothers have contributed to so much of that

i cant get over how emotional i am right now
theres so many more things that i could be saying right now

but ill leave it at
peace, love & jonas

for-fucking-ever.

daily LOL: boop!

I Love My Mom

Okay, maybe I am getting a little sentimental here.. But I totally had a moment yesterday where I realized how much I friggen love my mother.

I was seeing a chiropractor in Guelph, who used to work out of Chatham, that my mother LOVED and had seen several times - so I asked the chiropractor if he remembered my mom. He couldn't recall her by name, and so I literally said these words (seriously, not even paraphrasing):

"If you saw her again, or if I had a picture - you would IMMEDIATELY remember. She is impossible to forget. She's awesome."

And my chiro looked at me like he has never heard someone say those words before, especially those words coming from someone my age (21)! And he then proceeded to laugh at how nerdy I sounded "I LOVE MY MOM SHES AWESOME" etc. Yes... it was nerdy... But I meant well, and I actually meant it. But seriously (yes, now it is time for the mushy stuff)

Thank you mom for absolutely everything you do. I feel like it is so easy to overlook all the wonderful things our mothers do for us.. So I just wanted to make sure you know how much you mean to me. I wouldn't be where I am today without you, nor would I be the women I current am.

AND - I WOULDN'T BE HILARIOUS (cool story, mom)

I love you mom.

xox

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I want YOU

TO TELL ME WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT

I know you guys read my blogs, and clearly - you must like em a little bit because you keep coming back! Well, this is your chance to give me some topics you would like to hear about..

Comment below and give me some of your ideas, and I would LOVE to blog about them! (no, I am not getting lazy and unable to think of topics, I will be able to continue without you... but I would really like to do a viewers choice blog every once and a while!)

Let me know! The sky is your limit (but not really, I'll blog about space.. I DUN CARE!)

ps i know the picture is weird.. but like.. its friggen adorable and i cant think of a situation where i would ever use it, other than right now. its.. its just.. its perfect ♥

I love sex (and the city)

I have become HOOKED! I am not even done season 2 yet, but I am in absolute love with the show. I feel like I can relate my life back to everything those ladies go through (except of course, in my life there is less sex, less fabulous parties, and my clothes aren't nearly as expensive). But so many times I hear quotes and just go "damn. yep. that is me."

I thought I'd share some quotes from the show, enjoy!

Carrie: People say ‘Everything happens for a reason.’ These people are usually women. And these women are usually sorting through a break-up. It seems that men can get out of a relationship without even a ‘Goodbye,’ But, apparently, women have to either get married or learn something.

Samantha: Good guys screw you, Bad guys screw you and the rest don't know how to screw you.

Carrie: Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you're pretty sexy and you're taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with.

Charlotte: Nobody gets everything they want! Look at you, look at Miranda. You're good people and you two both got shafted. I'm so happy and... something bad is going to happen.

Carrie: I revealed too much too soon. I was emotionally slutty.

Samantha: I will not be judged by you or society. I will wear whatever and blow whomever I want as long as I can breathe and kneel.

Carrie: Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn’t fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it’s comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart.

Miranda: Sexy is the thing I try to get them to see me as after I win them over with my personality.

Monday, November 28, 2011

People Judge

People Judge..

You can't escape it..

Girls are boys get bullied for who they are, what they look or act like and some take it to heart and hurt themselves, you know?

It's not easy hearing people say bad things about you, and then to ignore it. But some people don't understand that - at the end, it's okay to smile and move on. It really helps me. Always look forward and try to push past the negativity. I think everyone is beautiful and they deserve to be happy, no matter what.

-Miley Cyrus

Things I Would Like for Christmas

hint hint









thanks in advance!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Curb Your Enthusiasm BLOOPERS

Admittedly, you probably won't find this that funny if you have never seen curb...

But for those of us who have a great sense of humour and are smart enough to watch the show - enjoy! I spent the last 6ish minutes laughing out loud, mostly because when I actually watch curb, I spend most of the time wondering how the eff they don't burst out laughing the entire time. Now I know.

Enjoy!


Degrees of Separation

Have you ever felt that wherever you go and whoever you meet, no matter how wildly new and different they are from anyone in your past - you will usually be able to make some kind of connection to someone in your past. Probably someone who was important. I know there are times, very frustrating times, where I feel like I can't escape. Even across the province, EVERYONE KNOWS EVERYONE. And it blows my mind.

But apparently, I am not alone in this - and there is a very good explanation for this phenomenon. Degrees of Separation

You're probably thinking that this sounds familiar.. 6 degrees of separation, right? Wikepedia describes this phenomenon like this "Six degrees of separation refers to the idea that everyone is on average approximately six steps away, by way of introduction, from any other person on Earth, so that a chain of, "a friend of a friend" statements can be made, on average, to connect any two people in six steps or fewer." Sounds legit... And scary!

But it gets worse! New research is stating that this number is a little too big... And we are reaching about a separation of 4 or 5. This is made possible through social networks, like facebook. But like, this is the WORLDWIDE stat... WORLDWIDE we are connected to any given person by 4 or 5 degrees, or introductions, and that is just insane. But like...

What does this mean for people who share the same interests, live in similar areas, follow the same dreams. The degrees must be even smaller. And I can totally vouch for this. Like most people, really, are only separated from us by like 1 or 2 people. No matter where I go or who I meet, I can always find a way to make a connection to my past - and it is shocking easy how quickly this happens.

The world is a pretty small place, and it is almost impossible to escape.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Words Are A Powerful Tool

Sticks and stone may break my bones... but those words? Guess what? They DO hurt. You can ignore them, and put them away, but no matter how much you ignore it - there will always be some sort of sting that will come from them.


Words are a powerful tool: Be careful how you use yours.

Friday, November 25, 2011

food....

me and haley had a wonderful conversation today while attempting to do homework/study and I came to the conclusion that we actually are the best.

And the hungriest.

"I'll drive you home because I want to go to zerhs and maybe get a box of oreos. Because they have christmas oreos... Wait. No. No I don't. Bad idea."

"We can get healthy things too.. like, lettuce! Or.. Maybe, no. Lets sleep on it. So we know we aren't making rash decisions."

"Yes! Because I have a feeling I'd really regret buying that lettuce!"

"Yeah, and the thing is... Is that we aren't crash dieting. We are being healthy. So we are going to lose weight eventually, and it is FINE if we eat junk like McDonalds and oreos every once in a while!"

"YEAH! and like.. If I am going to lose weight, I want to gain some first! You know? Work so I have something to lose?"

"Yeah, before you diet you got to gain some to up the anti!"

We've been working out...

MERRY CHRISTMAS


Thursday, November 24, 2011

Marcel The Shell With Shoes On TWO

hahahahha.

this is one of those videos that gets funnier every time you watch it.

I haven't decided what my favourite line is yet... I am thinking maybe "read on", or "I can smell his face!" But there are many that are up there. So good!

If you haven't seen part one, click here to watch it first



:)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

qod

“The biggest moments of insecurity come when all self-confidence is lost and you feel like people are watching and judging. It should be the opposite. You should feel like the people who are watching care about you. This is something we can try to give each other – the feeling that eyes signal support, not disdain.”

- Miley Cyrus

I'm Sorry

I am SORRY:

That I am not a follower, that I refuse to agree with you or do what you are doing just because YOU think it is the best thing to do.

That I am funny, and I am not ready to censor myself because you find it stupid. And I am extremely sorry if you do not get my humour.

That I refuse to give in when you are trying so hard to engage me. I have been involved in fights, and I have learned that not fighting back is the bravest thing you can do.

If I ever hurt you. But just remember, if I hurt you - that was between me and you, and I would never make it a public story.

That I'm weird and make you feel uncomfortable by it.

That I am going places in life that require a lot of time and a lot of dedication, and I am sorry that you feel like you got second place.

That I grew apart from you. That my life and your life are not on the same pathways. And I am sorry you all started to resent me for that.

That I am ready to live life for myself, and not you anymore.

That I can smile and be happy, and show that life goes on naturally.. But naturally doesn't mean easy. A lot of work has gone into this.

That I am happy without you.

Mostly,

I'm sorry for those who cannot say that they are sorry.

Yahoo Answer FAILS










Monday, November 21, 2011

Sleep Paralysis

The effin weirdest thing just happened to me as I was taking a nap:

I was napping, and I had the lights on because I was supposed to be studying for a midterm I have tomorrow, and Frankie was curled up nicely next to me. The next thing I know, I am starting to wake up - except I'm not. I totally cannot move. I felt like I was 100% conscious, but I could not move as hard as I tried. And I tried hard. I was FIGHTING to wake myself up, I even remember trying to scream "help!" over and over, but all that came out was this weird airy whisper. It was freaky... and then as I started to be able to move, I "lifted" my head from under my covers and my room was totally dark (impossible because my lights ARE on) and I see this strange shadowy thing to my left - but ignore it because I'm just concerned about waking the eff up. And then I gave up trying and tried to go back to sleep, and low and behold - that was all I needed to do to wake up. I don't feel refreshed at all, my heart is still pounding, and I never want that to happen ever again.

So, I decided to google "what is it called when you try to wake up and cant" and decided what just happened to me is called "sleep paralysis" and is actually quite common. It happens to about half of the population at least once in their lives, so I don't have to worry that anything is wrong with me.

And like, I've seen inception.. sooo idk? That helps too.

But generally, the gist that I got from it is that you accidentally get into this awakened state during REM sleep, and even though you aren't awake - you feel awake, and you aren't dreaming anymore. But your brain keeps the dream state going. So you start fighting the brain to move and get up, but you are paralyzed. They hypothesize this is so you don't sleep walk or act out the dream you are having.

The reason the whole "dark shadowy figure" didn't freak me out is because I believe HARD in the magic of the brain, and in science - and I saw this video by Michael Shermer (skeptic extraordinaire) about a year ago, and knew in the back of my mind that the brain is responsible for making you feel and see ghostly spirits. And because I was feeling awake, I was like okay yeah, clearly my brain is doing something weird.

But this whole "ghostly encounter" is quite normal. Most people experience it as part of sleep paralysis. They literally feel held down. I know I felt that, and that could explain why I couldnt even yell out. But it is, like Michael Shermer said, your brain acting out some crazy stuff - and because you are in dream state still, it feels really real.

Anyway, I don't really have much more to say... Just thought I would share my experience. If you have stories about this, post them here! I am very curious!

Remember when lip synching was cool?

Neither do I....

Enjoy!






Artist of the Year (and classiest, too)

Taylor Swift is officially going down in my books as the classiest celebrity out there.

She has never had a drunk scandal, or a sexy one... Nor has she ever done anything (other than write totally relateable and sometimes mean songs) to ruin her reputation as being totally sweet and kind and wonderful.

But that isn't the only reason she is 100% class. Taylor is genuinely the sweetest person, anyone would vouch for her (except maybe joe jonas) but the thing is, is that she is so thankful every single day to be where she is. She has never let fame get to her head. She wins awards EVERY award show. She is an unstoppable force when it comes to it. She generally sweeps all the awards away in every category she is nominated for.. and yet, she is always so thankful and surprised. She LOVES her fans, too.

She kind of won my heart a year ago at the CMAs with this speech, while sobbing, "I will never forget this moment because in this moment everything I have ever wanted has just happened to me."

Congrats Swifty on yet another big win tonight at the AMAs (Artist of the year, Female Country Artist and Country Album). You deserve it. And the best part is... you don't even take that for granted

Sunday, November 20, 2011

best presents EVER

Remember that time I posted about how to smell like me?

Well now I get to smell like me, for even longer, and even freer (i skip number 4 like a BOSS...) thanks to my lovely family.

My famjam knows that I love to moisturize, and that I love to smell good.. so look at the amount of delish bath and body works products I racked in today from different members of the family (haha, seriously, great minds think alike!)

The kinds of lotion I got (if you cant see properly or are blind, but if you are blind i guess me typing out the flavors wont exactly be helpful either nor will me explaining this all between these brackets....) are DARK KISS and VANILLA BEAN NOEL. I also got 2 things of Dark Kiss body spray, so I am hooked up for life.

and BTW. No it isnt my birthday. Today was family Christmas. But I shall post more about that later!

meow.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I get by with a little help from my friends

I have the best set of friends.
Almost every picture of last night involves someone mid-laugh.

How lucky am I?

Great friends are hard to find. Hold on to them. That's how we get by.


"A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts
what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow."

- William Shakespeare

Friday, November 18, 2011

please... remember me

Life is not about who is the prettiest, or smartest, or the funniest. Nor is life about the clothes you wear, the music you listen to, or who your favourite celebrity is. In a few years, no one will remember those things.

All people will remember is the impact you made.

So instead of caring if you're the hottest, or if you're the most popular... Just try to radiate love and happiness into people's lives. Because in a few years, that's what people will remember.

I'd rather be known for leaving a positive impact in people's lives than be known as being "that stylish bitch". I dunno?

Thursday, November 17, 2011

you're still an innocent

I feel like people go through life judging people on the things they did, or the things they have said. But I don't think that is a very fair measure to judge a person on. We all say and do things that we really don't mean, or that we regret - it's just an inevitable part of life. So how is it fair to judge an entire person based on that? Thats ONE part of their life.

What I have learned growing up and going through everything I have ever gone through is that SHIT HAPPENS. It happens to everyone. So I've realized you can "judge" a person (more so, their character) on so much more than the stuff they go through. you will learn a lot more about a person by how they react, respond and come back from things. Seems easy? Right? But really, not a lot of people do this.

People look at one event, and never give a person a second chance. But people, we are still young, and we are still learning. People make mistakes, or people get themselves into bad situations. But that doesn't mean they are bad people. You have to be careful when associating yourself with people who are so ready to judge others without knowing (or caring about) the whole story - because think about it, if you screw up - they will probably do the exact same thing to you. Its the way they work. It may suck to face that, but you have to make the choice to keep those people in your life or let them go.

They always say that you learn from the past. Well, if that is true - why are we so ready to use the past as a measure to judge someone? A good person is someone who doesn't let the past hold them back, and uses a bad experience to better themselves. They will try to right the wrongs, but they will also let go of the negatives things there too. Life isn't meant to be the easy thing we float through, people will stumble along the way (granted - some people will stumble more than others), but you have to give respect to ANYONE who will pick themselves up again. Because even though their mistake may have hurt you, if the person is willing to pick themselves up - I guarantee you 100% that the mistake hurt THEM more. Because they were willing to look back, see something they caused, and critically analyze themselves. That takes a shit ton of courage to do.

There are some people who are lucky and avoid these slip ups - but no one is perfect (you are naive if you think so). But you never learn life lessons without making some mistakes. Don't let this lull you into a sense of comfort, because at any time - something bad can happen, and you may not know how to pick yourself up from it.

That is why it is so important to not judge people and to understand the strength it takes to come back from a slip up - it may happen to you. These slips and falls suck. No doubt. But in the end, if you let them, they make you a better person. The opposite is true too - they can ruin you - but ONLY IF YOU LET THEM. You have a choice. You can direct your future. You cannot determine exactly where it will go, but you can lead it in the direction you want it to go to.

Most importantly. I want to emphasize that not everything you hear will be TRUE. It takes a really big person to listen to both sides of the story (because no matter what you think - there will always be 2 sides.) Don't be so willing to just believe one person's side because it is a good story and everyone is talking about it. Chances are, there are details left out, or details added. Just because it is a good story, doesn't mean it is a completely true story.

And yeah, maybe you want to end a friendship because of something that was done. That is FINE. It is your choice. Just be mature enough to keep it between you and the "ex" friend. Don't make other people choose sides just because you feel hurt.

Love is louder than the temptation to believe or spread gossip. Rise above.

Daily LOL: Philosoraptor (Kelsey Version)

Why isn't the word palindrome a palindrome?


... ponder that, philosoraptor!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

rainbow hair, dun care!

thanks to manic panic, alicia, and a little creativity,
I have become a rainbow haired princess.

You only live once, right?



i feel like a mermaid of the cotton candy sea!

come at me, bro


u scared?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

my studying rut

I seriously never study enough, and I know that I do have adequate time... But I never am able to just sit down, and hammer out some readings.

WHY?

I Blame the internet.

I seriously just go on quick to check twitter, or the student life project, or twitter, and end up wasting HOURS (literally, hours). And when I look back on those hours, I just don't understand where all my time went. And I am remorseful and mourn that time lost.

And then, instead of doing what a normal person would do and kick my butt into gear - I mope around and make dinner (when I have to study thats when I get the most creative in the kitchen, aka STALL). And then I dont want to eat and study. Hellz no.

So anyway.

The point of this post is that school sucks and I'm running away to disney world to be a professional princess. Come visit me :)

Other solutions involve sucking it up, time management or asking for help..... but I like mine the best!

Monday, November 14, 2011

How To Smell Like Kelsey

Hygiene is overrated. Smelling good is not. I am NOTORIOUS for loading up lotion multiple times a day(and also known for having really soft skin). but soft skin is not the only perk that comes from lotion - a great scent is another perk! I actually do get compliments on how good I smell quite often. So. You're probably asking yourself "how can I smell like kelsey?" Well. With these easy steps you can smell like me in no time! (you're welcome)

Step 1
Go to the nearest bath and body works location

Step 2
Locate the "dark kiss" lotion section

Step 3
Pick up a bottle of dark kiss scented body cream, and a bottle of dark kiss scented body lotion

Step 4 (optional)
Pay for items mentioned above

Step 5
Lather your stomach, butt, elbows and other dry areas with the body cream

Step 6
Moisturize the rest of your body with the body lotion

Step 7
Smell awesome

Step 8
Fish for compliments

Step 9
Receive compliments

Step 10
Thank Kelsey

qod: johnny depp (on being weird)

I think everybody's weird. We should all celebrate our individuality and not be embarrassed or ashamed of it.

I don't try to be Captain Weird, I just do what I do.

If there's any message, it is ultimately that it's okay to be different; that it's good to be different, that we should question ourselves before we pass judgment on someone who looks different, behaves different, talks different, is a different color.

We're all damaged in our own way. Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy. Every single one of us.

As a teenager I was so insecure. I was the type of guy that never fitted in because he never dared to choose. I was convinced I had absolutely no talent at all. For nothing. And that thought took away all my ambition too.

People say I make strange choices, but they’re not strange for me. My sickness is that I’m fascinated by human behavior, by what’s underneath the surface, by the worlds inside people.

I am doing things that are true to me. The only thing I have a problem with is being labeled.

-Johnny Depp

Sunday, November 13, 2011

cool story, mom

Moms are the best.....


.....The best at telling terrible stories.

***sidenote***
This does not apply to my own mother at all times.
Just the majority of times.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Hello Goodbye

The hardest part about a goodbye is the hello.

That doesn't make sense, right? Because it's a goodbye. There are no hellos involved in that.

But what I mean, is that after every goodbye, we always look back. It is an inevitable process. No matter how happy/mad/sad we were when we said that goodbye, we will look back at how we got there. Look back on the past, what went wrong, and eventually we will end up where it started: with a hello.

And remembering the hello is what always hurts us the most.

Hellos open up new doors. Doors with no judgements, no bitter feelings, just a willingness to meet someone new. Hellos are fresh starts. And they are so exciting. So pure. Hellos make you wonder what the future has in store. Hellos make you think the future is going to continue to be as exciting, and continue to make you feel as good as you do in this moment.

That's because hellos are innocent and pure.

Hellos don't make you worry about being hurt. Hellos don't even give you any reason to think there is a reason to be hurt. Because in that moment, that blissful moment, you are just 2 people. 2 people who want nothing but to impress each other, and get to know one another, and so the best face is put forward. And that face makes you think the future will be great. Why wouldn't you, right? Hellos make us feel so special. And all we ever want is to feel special...

But sometimes, the future doesn't follow the path the hello made you think it would.

Sometimes, a hello ends with a goodbye. A really really messy goodbye. The kind of goodbye that makes you ache for days, months, or even years. And through this ache, the hardest part is going to be looking back at that hello. That exciting hello that held so many promises that are now broken. And you'll feel betrayed.

Betrayed by your own damn hello.

And you know what? This is a brutal and really painful part of life. It is almost like a sick joke. Because after enough goodbyes, you might want to stop saying hello in the first place. You know, to save you from all the pain that you feel like you will eventually face afterwards.

We can't let that happen, because although every hello will inevitably end with a goodbye in some way or another, that doesn't mean it has to end badly. We are still so young, too young... And if we start getting bitter about our hellos, and making our hellos stop us from moving forward - where will we be in a few years?

Alone.

Now for the advice portion: Let yourself believe in the magic in hellos. We wouldn't feel so betrayed by them if there wasn't a good reason, right? Hellos are there for a reason. We wouldn't get anywhere without them. Hellos are our entire world. So, let the future give you everything it has in store for you after those hellos. If it ends in a goodbye that makes you sad, so be it... there will be more hellos - as long as you are open to them. Don't let goodbyes make you bitter about hellos.

-k