Sunday, December 11, 2011
I have literally never felt so hungover in my life. And like, that is saying something. Ask Dale, he has seen me at my worst - and this, is worse (probably because it is right now and it sucks). But I HATE this feeling. And the worst part is, is that I wasn't even that wasted. I definitely drank a little too much, but I was in control the entire night.. Got poutine.. and was in bed at a reasonable hour.
But now, ugh.
So I decided to reflect on my partying past.
And then, I don't know what happened or why, but I stopped loving it.
And every time I drank I would get tipsy, yes... But not nearly at the same level I used to. And people noticed. All my "friends" commented on how lame I had gotten, and how I needed to get greasy again. And seriously, this happened a lot. If I said I didn't feel like drinking it was like blasphemy. It didn't even matter that I still wanted to come out and hang out with everyone, if I wasn't getting wasted.. I basically wasn't even welcome. The number of times I was called a pussy by these people for not drinking or for not getting "too drunk" or greasy was really high.
And that sucks, right?
Like.. I can have a lot of fun, and I feel better about myself, when I don't drink hard. I still like to party and get crazy every once and a while, but even then I don't drink nearly as much as I used too. And it makes me feel good about myself. I love remembering my nights and I don't want to go back to those black out times.
And I want to be around people who respect that.
It is really crazy how much things have changed. But in a really great way. I am sooo much happier, all the time.
I probably don't party like I used to because I am not who I used to be. There are more important things in life that I like to go after, and I don't deserve to be resented for that. It is really hard for a lot of people I think.. Like, growing up is so hard.. And you know, life changes like this should be celebrated, not resented.
If anyone wanted to get me a bag of dill pickle doritos..... I'd be so down for that :)
I love you all so much, and I truly want the best for you. And I just really hope that when you party - you can wake up and feel good about yourself! Because what is the point of doing it any other way?