Tuesday, November 1, 2011

courage: awareness is the first step

I told another lie today, and I got through this day.. no one saw through my games. I know the right words to say, like:

"I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look and for a moment... I am happy. But when I'm alone, no one hears me cry.

I need you to know I'm not through the night. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light. I need you to know that we'll be okay. Together we can make it through another day.

I don't know the first time I felt un-beautiful. The day I chose not to eat.
What I do know is how I changed my life forever.

I know I should know better.

There are days when I'm okay, and for a moment I find hope. But there are days when I'm not okay, and I need your help.

So I'm letting go.

You should know you're not on your own,
These secrets are walls that keep us alone.

I don't know when, but I know now:
together we'll make it through somehow.

I saw this video for the first time in grade 11 or 12,
and it really stuck with me. Powerful stuff.

it takes a lot of courage to admit you need help,
so just know that people (including myself) are there for you.

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