Wednesday, August 31, 2011

my personal weight-loss

Like I said in my first post of this blog, I knew 2011 was going to be a good year for me. And this involved getting myself healthy.

However, this more or less meant getting healthy emotionally - and I feel like all my weight-loss came out as a by-product of this. I honestly wanted to be happy and healthy. Skinny was never the goal, never will be either. Just health.

For all of you who want to know, I have lost about 20 pounds. Which is crazy, because I never thought I had 20 pounds I needed to lose. Bra wise, I have gone from a 36D to a 34C (trust me, I am STOKED about that), and have gone down about 4 or 5 pant sizes. The only thing that is getting bigger is my booty. If you look to the left, that is what Kelsey plus 20 pounds looked like. I accept I was never fat, but admittedly I like the way I look without the extra pounds. To the right and below a bit is current Kelsey.

People ask me often what I did to lose this weight. I don't exactly have an answer for them, other than I put the right attitude into it this time. I changed my life, I became happy, and that was step 1. The other steps followed and went along naturally without TOO much effort. I love that at this point I can look at my body and know that I literally worked my ass off. Remember:
If you don't change anything, how can you expect your body to change?

My best tips:

1. It is almost impossible to start exercising, but once you find a routine that you like - you will crave it :) It could be anything. Find what you like, because you are way more likely to keep it up.

2. Eat what you crave. Seriously. If you crave chips, eat some. Because if you don't, your craving will just build and build and build and eventually go crazy. It is never good to deprive yourself. It just leads to bad things in the end.

3. PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN. Exercise is almost wasted without adequate protein intake.

4. Fiber is your friend, say hello to it. Hold on to it. And never let go. Especially with a diet that includes increased protein.

5. Don't weigh yourself often. I didn't weigh myself for months, so when I looked at my weight after all that time and saw the initial drop of 12 pounds - it was crazy motivational. A women's weight can fluctuate up to about 10 pounds A DAY depending on what you eat and what time of the month it is, so weighing yourself every day can be really discouraging.

6. Just because you have a bad day doesn't mean you ruined everything. Everyone has bad days. Whatever. Who currrrs. It's life.

7. Remember, this is the only body you get. Treat it right. I don't diet, but I have decided to really focus on "clean" eating. I am just starting that actually, and am really excited. The less grease, the better. The less processing, the better. As much as I hate whole grains, I am cutting back on the starchy white stuff.

8. Don't smoke. It may make you thinner by reducing your appetite. But there are healthier ways. Working at this office throughout the summer, I see how much of an INDEPENDANT risk factor smoking is. So many sick people are also smokers (and they are also often overweight, which scares me too).

9. It is never too late to start. But, the sooner the better. You never want to get to that point where you feel like you have gone too far deep - but if you get there, just know that it ISN'T too late.

As Taylor Swift would say:

"Today is never too late to be brand new."

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Drunk Kelso FTW

The other day, for Leland's goodbye party, I thought it would be wise to bring tons of glow sticks - to, you know, spice the night up. Knowing my friends, we would take the glow sticks and use them in some greasy way. Well, long story short, we did.

And despite all the hilarious and slightly scandalous pictures from that night, there is one picture that stands above the rest.

Yep, this right here is my favourite.

Mostly because it shows that drunk Kelsey is a drunken idiot (a hilarious, lovable and very adorable idiot) .


My bfflaeaeae Charlene and I were in the middle of what appears to be a glow stick photo-shoot, and this picture we were supposed to be looking like "walruses".... yeah, you know.... with the glow sticks representing walrus tusks and what have you.... and well, this was clearly my interpretation.... Dead on Kelso, dead on.

So... wait... what?

You're telling me walrus tusks DON'T come out of the walrus' nose?


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2009: Year of the Jonas

On this day in 2009:


What a day that was. What a few days those were - like, really. I went from Ohio, to Ottawa within like 4 or 5 days... and saw the Jonas Brothers 3 times... not to mention I had already seen them on July 26th (front row, best 19th birthday EVER!). And then I came home from those concerts, and got the effin swine flu. hahahahha. yeah.... that just made my post-concert depression a whole lot better.

Here are some awesome pictures from that summer!

Moments before holding Jordin Sparks' hand

Moments before Joe held my hand and sung for me


Surprise appearance by Demi (AMAZING)

Final show of the tour = mad pranks

I had to...

Monday, August 29, 2011

Demi Lovato is NOT Fat

After her appearance at the VMA's last night, Demi Lovato has been attacked with criticism, and honestly - it is more like bullying. Shame on anyone who called her fat.

As we know, Demi has had a hard hard year. She struggled with an eating disorder, for a long time, and she finally had the courage to accept this and get help.

She shows up at the award show looking so happy and healthy. She was glowing from head to toe. She was perfect. That girl has curves I can only dream of. And her boobs? Omg, don't even get me started on her boobs. I was jealous... But not only because she looked absolutely amazing, but because she had the courage to show it off.

I think it takes a lot more courage for an underweight person to gain weight than it does for an overweight person to lose it. I mean, just look what happened - Demi was immediately called fat. Told that she has "chubby arms" (to which she replied something along the lines of 'who cares').

You go girl!

Like I have said in another post - society is ugly, we aren't. I know what it is like to see a distorted image in the mirror, and it is not fair that society makes this image seem like the acceptable view.

Just, look at this. You can see the difference not only in her weight, but in how she carries herself. She is a sexy beast and just oozing sexy confidence in picture 2.



^^if that is fat, can I PLEASE be fat?!

be the best you that you can be

I have a good feeling about this year.

And I think that's how we need to look at every year. But not just every year, but every month. Every week. Every day. Every night. We can't be living life thinking that "tonight is going to suck" or that "this year is going to be brutal." What kind of life is that, really?

Sure, maybe we are going to face some challenges and so some things we would rather not... but it is because of these things that we get shaped and become the people of our futures.

I remember my parents telling me when I was really young (and often really grumpy) that if you decide to wake up and have a bad day, you will. But if you wake up and tell yourself that "today I will be happy", you will. Sometimes you literally have to tell yourself that. I mean it, speak those words out loud. Let those be the first words out of your mouth every day. You will notice a difference.

At this point in my life, I am so inspired to move forward... and I feel really lucky about that. Most people will hit a roadblock, and instead of moving forward and being excited - that negative attitude that is telling you that 'this is hard' wins.

I love looking at my options, and knowing I have options.

Life is so exciting. We live in a wonderful world, a wonderful world with options. Don't let those options be clouded by your attitude.

Wake up knowing that you are going to rock the absolute shit out of the day, and you will evolve.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

qod: saying goodbye

"I think it is time I let you go.

And that is so hard to do because some part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.

But the daydreaming...

The running in place...

It's not healthy.

So this is me, cutting the cord.

This is me, doing what I should have done a while ago...

Saying goodbye."

Friday, August 26, 2011

Pictures That Are Much More Than Pictures

Do you ever look back on pictures and get really choked up at the sight of one? And for a tiny moment, you can't explain why or what is causing this... and then it happens... you realize the significance. Sometimes, it has nothing to do with the picture itself. But the events that happened after, or before, shaped your life in some way or another.

Like, I look at this picture to the left. I took this picture the day after the first day of my 20th birthday celebration parties. It was at my house, and I have five dogs. Because people were coming in and out and in and out, the dogs were getting super excited - and long story short, Dexter, my 90+ pound golden retriever ended up jumping up on me... it didnt really hurt, and I was good and tipsy, so I just brushed it off. And, I woke up with this beauty.

I posted this picture on both twitter and facebook before heading to Windsor for part 2 of my birthday celebrations. Being like "oh hey, look at my bruise. feel sorry for me. lol." That was it. That's all that picture intended to be. It never meant to MEAN something to me.

But when I look at the picture, I don't think of Dexter bruising my leg. I think of something different all together. I think of that night, and how that night set the motions of the things that were to happen in the coming months. Big things. Life changing things. See that girl in the picture? That girl isn't me anymore. Because of that night, I am the person I am today.

I don't know.

Just some of my thoughts. Thoughts that I think you can all relate to.

We all have those pictures that are so much more than just pictures.

To read my other post on the significance of pictures (which is really just a quote from One Tree Hill) click on this obnoxiously large link that just keeps getting longer and longer and longer and longer. It is a good little quote though, and it really ties in to everything I have said here. So yeah, click it. I worked hard on this link, too. Clearly. You owe me this.

Pick Me. Choose Me. Love Me.

"Okay, here it is, your choice...

It's simple: her or me.. and I'm sure she's really great.

But, I love you.

In a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you.

So pick me.

Choose me.

Love me."

Easy A

Best Movie. Ever.

"I thought it was okay because it wasn’t real, you know?
It was make believe. No one was getting hurt.
But a lot of people hate me now.
And truth is, I kinda hate me too."

Humor. Wisdom. Truth. The whole sha-bang.

I don't think I will ever get sick of this!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The "Important" Changes in my Life

People say I've changed so much.

Well, here's the truth: I grew up.

I accepted reality.

I accepted that subway was for Jared, not me.

I opened my eyes (mouth) beyond tequila shots.

I heard real music, not just Disney pop.

I went from Twilight to Half Broken Horses.

I was awesome, but now I am McAwesome

My Contribution to Jersday


Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Wednesday Wisdom by Kelsey

My goodness. Letting go is one of the hardest things a person can do.

That's because holding on is so deep rooted, one of our first instincts as a baby is grasping. If something is placed in our reach we grasp it with our hands, and we hold on tight - never wanting to let go.

As we grow up we continue to grasp things tightly, not wanting to let go, but instead of using our hands - we use our minds. This is worse, because if something is taken away from us, it can remain in our minds. We control what we hold on to. As much as people can take away, they can never take away the feelings they invoked. These feelings can remain in our minds for a long, long time. We don't want to give it up, because giving it up means we are giving up on all those feelings and all those memories, and all that hope....

We can't predict the future.

What is going to happen if we do let go? What if that causes the world as we know it to crumble? What if letting go is taking away the final piece of the puzzle that is keeping everything held together? What if we regret letting go?

But as we grow older, and wiser, the world becomes a little clearer - and if we are lucky, our way of thinking can change completely. There will come a time when we realize (whether we like it or not) that letting go is acceptance, not giving up.

Letting go lets you throw away your unrealistic and hopeful idealizations of things that cannot possibly be. And as hard as it is to let these go, you will set yourself free.

Letting go doesn't mean letting go of MEMORIES. Keeping memories is fine, but don't let those memories run your life. It is one thing to reflect, and another thing to dwell. You often learn your greatest lessons through the things that are toughest to let go of, so remember these things as being important events in your life. But never as anything more than that.

Have faith that life will go on, and be excited at the idea of restarting.

That makes me want to grab people on the street and say: 'Have you HEARD THIS?'

"The atoms that comprise life on earth - the atoms that make up the human body, are traceable to the crucibles that cooked light elements into heavy elements in their core under extreme temperatures and pressures.

These stars, the high mass ones among them, went unstable in their later years. They collapsed and then exploded - scattering their enriched guts across the galaxy....

guts made of carbon, nitrogen, oxygen....and all the fundamental ingredients of life itself.

These ingredients become part of gas clouds that condense, collapse, form the next generation of solar systems: stars with orbiting planets. And those planets now have the ingredients for life itself.

So that when I look up at the night sky, and I know that yes we ARE a part of this universe. We are in this universe. But perhaps more important than both of those facts is that the universe is in us.

When I reflect on that fact, I look up - many people feel small, cause they're small and the universe is big.

But I feel big because my atoms came from those stars."

-Neil deGrasse Tyson

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Warning: Embarrassing

I wish youtube would have a disclaimer that says:

"Warning: In a few years you may find this footage extremely embarrassing and not want millions of people around the world to have access to it. Just saying. Proceed with extreme caution."

But alas, it does not, and gems like this get put on youtube for the world to see.



QOD: Angelina Jolie

I went to put an Angie quote, because the girl has some good ones, but I couldn't decide on just one seeing as they are all great and very inspirational. Here are some of my favourites, enjoy:

Without pain, there would be no suffering. Without suffering, we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right: pain and suffering is the key to all windows. Without it, there is no way of life.

I don't believe in guilt, I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person, and don't judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free.

I think all women go through periods where we hate this about ourselves, we don't like that. It's great to get to a place where you dismiss anything you're worried about. I find flaws attractive. I find scars attractive.

If I make a fool of myself, who cares? I'm not frightened by anyone's perception of me.

RIP Jack Layton

It was with terrible sadness that I learned that Jack Layton had passed away yesterday morning. When I heard the news on the radio at work, I literally freaked out. We all knew he was sick.... But I don't think any of us saw this coming. At least not this soon, anyway.

That was because this man was a fighter. And he will be remembered as such.

Actually, to be perfectly honest, his first legacy miiiiiight be his incredible mustache... That thing was pure and unparalleled perfection...

But, yeah! Being a fighter is definitely a close second.

I gotta admit, this man really inspired me to get involved in this year's election. The way he ran his campaign was incredible, clearly, seeing as he took the NDPs into official opposition and bringing the liberals down to their lowest point, ever. I truly believe this man would change the world, regardless what party he was associated with, in an amazing way. He was so much more than his party. I feel like Jack Layton was the answer to a lot of Canada's problems. Like he said, this is a wonderful country, but there is so much more that can come from us.

I loved watching him debate because he was so passionate, fair, honest, and he had the best come backs (the man was a firecracker). There was something so honest and trustworthy about him, and that is RARE in politics. Politics won't be the same without him, but I really believe that he has inspired a nation. I hope that good things are going to be happening in the future because of him. We need to remember all he did and what he stood for, and allow him to continue to inspire Canada through the wonderful legacy he has left behind!

His death brought more than a few tears to my eyes, and my greatest sympathies go to his family - because I know, cancer is a tough battle and it is never easy to lose someone you love.

RIP Jack Layton, you inspirational mustachioed fighter!

I am going to sign off the way the Mr. Layton signed off his final letter to the Canadian public, dated two days prior to his death:

"My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.

All my very best,

Jack Layton"

Sunday, August 21, 2011


The problem with today's generation?

We grew up too fast.

We felt society's pressure to be someone we weren't ready to be.

We felt the pressure to be perfect.

You're the beautiful one. It's society that's ugly."
- Marilyn Monroe

Demi Lovato

I don't why I have never talked about Demi on here before, Demi is an incredible girl and I think she is probably the best role model out there. Sure, she has had serious problems, but instead of covering them up - she let them out there to show that she is not invincible (and that NO ONE is).

The campaign she supports - "Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect" honestly breaks my heart because it is exactly what girls today need to hear. She is such a normal girl, who has gone through so much heartbreak. And what makes things worse is that her heartbreak is not private, it is out there for everyone to see. Everyone to comment on how much she suffers.

The picture to the right is from this summer, when I saw her in detroit (during the VIP sound check). Just look how tiny and flawless she is. Someone asked her a question about her favourite outfit, and she told us, but I remember getting really sad because she said "it was a gold dress at ___ award show. I looked so good because I had been working out and I was healthy then". Clearly implying that she was no longer satisfied with her body. Which is so sad, because look at her - completely beautiful. In all aspects.

She was treated for several months in rehab, it was never officially released what for - but speculated for depression, cutting, anger, and bulimia on top of all that. But she is now out, and she is stronger than ever. And I am honestly so proud. She is two years younger than me, it is so sad how that pressure has made her such an adult.

I love her, I feel like we relate. During the VIP soundcheck in toronto me and Demi conversed in FRENCH for a moment (it started because she said "i like toronto better than montreal" and I yelled out "YEAH! we speak english!" and she goes "wait what? did someone just ask me if i speak english?" hahah and it ended up with us saying minimal and crappy french to each other") and then someone made a comment near me about how they love her light hair, she thought it was me and replied "YOU WOULD! youre the blondest person here!"

I just love her. And have so much respect for her.

Friday, August 19, 2011

the very best of: CHEMISTRY CAT MEMES

love & other drugs


The things you want the most,
don't happen.

And what you least expect, happens.

I don't know.

You meet thousands of people....

And none of them really touch you.

And then you meet one person, and your life is changed.


Now go forth and buy (yes, buy) this movie. I guarantee you will not regret it. I am like, so eternally thankful that my friend basically forced me to watch it with her. It is so much more than just a romantic movie. It is smart, and sad, and really it just makes you think. About life, love and loneliness.

It is honestly one of the best movies I have seen in the recent years, and I highly recommend you all watch it (if you haven't yet, well, even if you have - watch it again).

Not convinced?

Well, 3 words for you all: Jake Gyllenhaal's Butt.


Thursday, August 18, 2011

the more you know, the less you want to ...


Okay. This is actually fairly embarrassing and not something I am proud of at all....
but it is kind of interesting.... and I thought you would all enjoy hearing about my experiences with.... uhh.... uhm..... sleep eating.

Yes. You heard me correctly.

Eating while I am asleep.

Specifically chocolate. Large amounts.

How embarrassing and gross is that? Like really?

So, I just figured you know, it was something that I did time to time when things were really stressful. It seriously only seems to happen when I had a bunch of papers due, or it was exam time, or things were just piling up.. And I would NEVER know I did it, except I leave evidence errrrrytime. I wake up in the morning and there will be a chocolate bar wrapper situated nicely between the pillow and my face, and there is chocolate smeared all down my cheek.

Caught red handed. Whoops.

And I go through the same thing EVERY TIME. First, I panic a little. Then, I find myself trying to remember exactly when I decided to grab this tasty treat and eat it in bed. But I can't. I never can remember how it happens. But it did. And there is nothing I can do about it at this point. And then I laugh about it.

BUT. Really, it pisses me off. Because I rarely eat treats like chocolate bars, and when I do, I want to reeeeally enjoy it and savor every single ounce of melty chocolatey goodness - and not be completely asleep!


So today, after a recent kit-kat episode, I decided to google it and see what was up - and if I was alone in this. and I found tha it does happen with increased stress... but, what I do (a chocolate bar here and there) is mild. There are some people that take it to an extreme. They make kitty litter sandwiches (can you say "ew"?) and consume THOUSANDS of calories, mostly in foods they wouldn't even eat if they were awake...

So, long story short, it actually made me feel less like a freak, and more like a girl who's subconscious craves a little chocolate love during stressful times.

Anyway. Hope you enjoyed my little story. Just one of the many things on my mind.

Phew! Feels good to get that off my chest!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011





After a year of being Jonas-less, I am now back to being an excited little fan-girl.

My main man, Mr. Joeseph Jonas, is touring this fall with Jay Sean - and he is conviniently stopping in Toronto on September 10th.


It is general admission, which means its a smaller venue, which means the chances of him noticing me and falling in love are at an all time high. Even though, you think he would have noticed me by now..... I was a pretty dedicated front-rower. No worries!

Even though he is short and cocky... LOOK AT THAT FACE! THE MAN IS A GOD. Also, he was at one point the love of my life. Not even an exaggeration. For a couple years, my diaries were filled with ideas on how to meet him and get him to realize we were meant to be.

Maybe my time is now? Hehehe.

Me and my sister from a nutha mister are going to be going together, which is nice - I hope Joe can handle it. And I am sure I will be seeing some wonderfully comforting FFE girls, as well. It feels good. I miss the Jonas BROTHERS... but seeing a single Jonas will have to suffice.

I actually can't wait.

That being said, I really need to start listening to more of Joe's solo stuff...

And Jay Sean. Who the eff is Jay Sean?

daily LOL

Sunday, August 14, 2011

And man, I feel like a Kelsey.

Urban Dictionary your name, it's fun!

A very smart, sweet girl with lots of things on her mind. She may seem distracted a lot and that's because she is most of the time. Very creative and sometimes shy, she always has to have music on. silence is her only weakness. She doesn't think she's attractive but in reality she's the most gorgeous thing you'll ever meet. often spaces out when near windows. always contemplating something. sugar junkie. very pale and doesn't care. easy to get along with. everyone loves her. stands up for her friends and would never hurt anyone intentionally. cares too much. picks the wrong crowd. not easily influenced. has so much planned for her. remember her, she'll be widely known soon. if you fall in love with a Kelsey don't ever let her go. she likes play-fighting. looks like the most innocent person alive but can be the sexiest, kinky little thing if you get her to that stage. likes being pushed to do better. always looking after those around her.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The Power Of A Smile

The power of a gun can kill;
and the power of Fire can Burn.

The power of wind can chill;
and the power of the mind can learn.

The power of anger can rage inside;
until it tears us apart.

But, the power of a smile, especially yours;
can heal a frozen heart.

- Tupac Shakur

religions: simplified